State of the Union
So all the kit that I ordered from Target so far has arrived and is in use. I’m super thrilled because the room is coming together wonderfully and it is almost feeling like a home again. I have a batch of stuff coming in from Japan to flesh out the living room / kitchen with some nifty knick knacks. The colors are really working well in here and the deep greens and browns are offsetting the eye laser effect of the apartment white walls. The black and silver home theater setup is a nice contract to the warm tones of the furniture. If ever I had a creative side it is in stuff like this. I told her the other day that I just don’t think like she does; I can’t see a finished product in my head and get there like she does with her art. But somehow I can do that when putting together a room — almost by complete chance. Anyway with the living room I have a few ideas for some wall hanging stuff and I want to find a set of nice curtains and this room will be done.
Then I have the unenviable task of taking the bedroom that her and I shared for nearly two years and making it somehow transform from ‘our’ room to ‘my’ room. I have a few ideas on what I want to do with it, but somehow I think I’m letting her influence still bleed in to what I’m coming up with. I know she has changed me, but I want to make sure that this room is for me and me alone at this point. I will never get better if I can’t have a solid foundation and if I let the bedroom seep with her influence I will always be living in the period between 8/2003 and 11/2006 where we were together and everything I did was tempered with my firm belief that we would never be apart. Now that we are apart I have to continually remind myself that I have to do things for myself alone.
I think the Asian influence I’m introducing into the living room is probably 60% for me and 40% for this shadow of her. I think that inside I want her to like the room and want to ‘live’ there and at the same rate it is something that I enjoy and in my heart I know that it looks good to me.
I hope to be done with the house by March so I can get down to the business of living.