Happy Fantasies
One day I’d like to visit Ireland. Maybe even move there to retire or something. I think that’d be awesome.
Yawn
So it is 12:04am and I’m at work. EMC is starting their work upgrading the code levels on the gear we have here and I’ve got some downtime before I need to hop into gear and start bringing servers down. It’s quiet, I like quiet.
Strife always does this…
It is funny how I will disappear off the internet for years at a time when things are going well. I guess I don’t feel a need to toot my own horn when stuff is rocking. Anyway stuff has kind of turned on its ear now and so I’m back at it! While I’m not really ready to go into details about what is going on with respect to the turmoil, I can talk a bit about the rest of life. Back on 4/20/2006 I was promoted within Frontier to Systems Administrator II, which is a senior level position which I’m thrilled with. A whole lot of corporate drama ensued, but I’m fairly content and happy about it. I work with a great bunch of people and while I am in charge of a number of very serious production systems it’s nothing like Xerox where I had systems that did payroll and accounting and SEC compliance under me. An outage for me may be stressful and customer affecting, but it probably won’t result in any federal actions or paychecks getting screwed up! I do get to take care of some very neat toys, like our EMC gear, which is big, loud and fancy. Over all, it is a very good thing — being on call here is nicer too, much less of a chance of having to drive in.
In other news, I quit smoking on 9/24/2006 and have been smoke-free ever since! I am feeling a lot better physically, I don’t wake up every night coughing up crap, I’m not totally out of breath after a few minutes of ‘elevated’ activity and unfortunately my sense of smell has pretty much returned full force! :) That might explain the new-found use of air fresheners in the house. Along with quitting smoking I am also walking on a pretty regular basis. I am up to about 3 miles a day at a pretty brisk pace. I am generally feeling good about that as well.
Finally I can say that the tumultuous events of recent past have jarred me into realizing that if I want to obtain my goals of finding someone and building a life with them I need to work out a few issues I have been carrying around for the last 15 years or so. A lot of the fears about becoming like my father have haunted me for a long time, nipping at my heels and causing me to deny myself the thought of starting a family. For so long I have been convinced that I shouldn’t ever have children, that it would just drive me to the edge and turn me into my father. The thought of perpetrating the same thing upon my own offspring upsets me to no end so until now I have always staunchly been against children. I won’t say that I’m completely over it now, but I’ve thought a lot about it over the last month and now I realize that it is just fear and that I can overcome it with the right person by my side.
Now to find the right person!
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